485 WW & 26 F days

The crap mood lingers

You should have seen my this morning at the gym. I was not a fun person to be around. Oh I did my 50 minutes of excercise, but the palce was boiling hot, and it was hard to get in the swing of things. In the end I sort of hung around 125 HR, and burned about 350 kal.

My faith in what I am doing has sort of suffered.....I KNOW it is extremely good for me, I just don't believe it as much as I did befoe. It still bothers the heck out of me that I gained weight. On sunday I will see if I have again gained weight despite my gym efforts. Granted I know something IS happening. But it i just hard to sort of go past the weight GAIN thing and see the benefits of what I am doing. The scales have a power influence on me. More so then I ever thought.

Stamina:
I can walk better AND longer, and still have more than enough energy to get through a whole day

Skin:
My skin (face) has improved dramatically. No more dry flakes, only a few red spots here and there. Hardly any zits. My body skin is supple, strong and feels smooth and never tight.

My mood:
I am usually a very happy go lucky person, but the feel good hormone really buzzes within most of the time -grin- I go through the day genuinely happy.

My ego:
I have somthing to brag about! because I know there are people who do not do what I do! What I used to be a couch or deskchair potatoe. Also I have managed to make two of my best friends as enthousiastic as I am myself. They joined the gym as well!!

484 WW & 25 F days - Emotions and cursing

Day maximum: 27,0 points
Bonuspoints used/saved/week's total saved: 27,0/0,0 /4,0
(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 2
(REQUIRED 3) vegetables: 0
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 0
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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I am so ABSOFLIPPIN'BLOODYBLINKIN'LUTELY angry!

I stuck to my diet well enough, I worked out like an animal 4 times this week, and I GAINED...........read it - GAINED - 0.9 lb! Oh of course I think of a number of reasons why would not have lost as much weight as I wanted: chocolate peanuts, too much sushi, not enough water. But to gain weight, that really, really pisses me off. I was angry last night and I am still angry now.

Yesterday I was about to attack the lady behind the scales, suggesting I should write down the things I eat, and may be I am retaining water, or may be I am not eating enough! I told her I write down everything in a blog, but she keeps insisting I should write it down for her. -growls-

The only thing for it is just to keep going like a stupid senseless animal, and hope that next week I will have lost weight. My back hurts, my mood is shit, sooooooo watch out world I am ready to donate some of this anger on the first one who gets in my way.

Sidenote: I am extremely seldom like this, so don't worry. keep out of my hair and you'll be fine by tomorrow.

I copied this from http://www.cmha.ca/.

Dealing with your anger

It is important to deal with your anger before it causes you discomfort or pain. Studies have shown that anger can cause serious health problems such ulcers and heart disease. It can also make you behave in ways that could cause you to lose your job or friends, or result in the break-up of your marriage. There are some things you can do to deal with your anger as it happens. Other things you can do involve changing your way of approaching life by learning new attitudes and taking a number of practical actions.

Short-term solutions

Admit that you are angry. If you bottle up your angry feelings, they will not go away, and they will keep coming out over and over again, painfully.

Try not to over-react. Step back from the situation that is making you angry and ask yourself, "What would I think of someone else if I saw him/her getting angry in this situation?" or "Is this situation really as bad as I am making it out to be?"

Try to make yourself think about something else. Turn your attention to some pleasant memory rather than the line-up, traffic jam or whatever is irritating you.
Identify the source of your anger. If the actions or words of another person are hurting you, try to you deal with him/her directly in a peaceful and productive way.

Listen carefully to what others are saying to you, and let them finish without interruption. Very often, you will not understand the real message if you "jump in" after a few words. Give people a chance to explain themselves.

Ok, so now you know. Let me mull on all this and get back to you!

Well, I've done my thinking. Shed my anger. In the end it is a storm in a glass of water. So what have I been thinking. I cannot really point any fingers untill I know for suer it is not my food intake which is messing things up. So this week is going to be a text book week. All my water, vegetables and fruit, and especially my fat. Carbs and protein is usually not the problem. When I get home tonight I will do some planning for this week to make sure I don't stray.

Tonight I am going out to dine with Fred, my bestest friend in the whole wide world. Who by the by signed a very favorable contract today. WHOOPEE! As usual we will be going to have pizza, the decision I have now is this: do I eat all of the pizza and use some 14 points of the HUGE bulk of points I build up with my work outs (near 90 points a week), or do I fit in half a pizza? Do you people have any suggestions? I am .......at a loss.

HELP!

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Breakfast
5,0 points
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3,0 - 500 ml organic curd (low fat)
2,0 - 2tbs honey
0,0 - 2 kiwis
0,0 - 750 ml water

Lunch
8,5 points
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8,5 - chicken wrap
0,0 - mineral water
0,0 - 250 gr tomatoes (organic)

Diner
14,0 points
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14,0 - pizza
0,0 - plain salad
0,0 - coca cola light

Various
0,0 points
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0,0 - here