485 WW & 26 F days

The crap mood lingers

You should have seen my this morning at the gym. I was not a fun person to be around. Oh I did my 50 minutes of excercise, but the palce was boiling hot, and it was hard to get in the swing of things. In the end I sort of hung around 125 HR, and burned about 350 kal.

My faith in what I am doing has sort of suffered.....I KNOW it is extremely good for me, I just don't believe it as much as I did befoe. It still bothers the heck out of me that I gained weight. On sunday I will see if I have again gained weight despite my gym efforts. Granted I know something IS happening. But it i just hard to sort of go past the weight GAIN thing and see the benefits of what I am doing. The scales have a power influence on me. More so then I ever thought.

Stamina:
I can walk better AND longer, and still have more than enough energy to get through a whole day

Skin:
My skin (face) has improved dramatically. No more dry flakes, only a few red spots here and there. Hardly any zits. My body skin is supple, strong and feels smooth and never tight.

My mood:
I am usually a very happy go lucky person, but the feel good hormone really buzzes within most of the time -grin- I go through the day genuinely happy.

My ego:
I have somthing to brag about! because I know there are people who do not do what I do! What I used to be a couch or deskchair potatoe. Also I have managed to make two of my best friends as enthousiastic as I am myself. They joined the gym as well!!

484 WW & 25 F days - Emotions and cursing

Day maximum: 27,0 points
Bonuspoints used/saved/week's total saved: 27,0/0,0 /4,0
(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 2
(REQUIRED 3) vegetables: 0
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 0
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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I am so ABSOFLIPPIN'BLOODYBLINKIN'LUTELY angry!

I stuck to my diet well enough, I worked out like an animal 4 times this week, and I GAINED...........read it - GAINED - 0.9 lb! Oh of course I think of a number of reasons why would not have lost as much weight as I wanted: chocolate peanuts, too much sushi, not enough water. But to gain weight, that really, really pisses me off. I was angry last night and I am still angry now.

Yesterday I was about to attack the lady behind the scales, suggesting I should write down the things I eat, and may be I am retaining water, or may be I am not eating enough! I told her I write down everything in a blog, but she keeps insisting I should write it down for her. -growls-

The only thing for it is just to keep going like a stupid senseless animal, and hope that next week I will have lost weight. My back hurts, my mood is shit, sooooooo watch out world I am ready to donate some of this anger on the first one who gets in my way.

Sidenote: I am extremely seldom like this, so don't worry. keep out of my hair and you'll be fine by tomorrow.

I copied this from http://www.cmha.ca/.

Dealing with your anger

It is important to deal with your anger before it causes you discomfort or pain. Studies have shown that anger can cause serious health problems such ulcers and heart disease. It can also make you behave in ways that could cause you to lose your job or friends, or result in the break-up of your marriage. There are some things you can do to deal with your anger as it happens. Other things you can do involve changing your way of approaching life by learning new attitudes and taking a number of practical actions.

Short-term solutions

Admit that you are angry. If you bottle up your angry feelings, they will not go away, and they will keep coming out over and over again, painfully.

Try not to over-react. Step back from the situation that is making you angry and ask yourself, "What would I think of someone else if I saw him/her getting angry in this situation?" or "Is this situation really as bad as I am making it out to be?"

Try to make yourself think about something else. Turn your attention to some pleasant memory rather than the line-up, traffic jam or whatever is irritating you.
Identify the source of your anger. If the actions or words of another person are hurting you, try to you deal with him/her directly in a peaceful and productive way.

Listen carefully to what others are saying to you, and let them finish without interruption. Very often, you will not understand the real message if you "jump in" after a few words. Give people a chance to explain themselves.

Ok, so now you know. Let me mull on all this and get back to you!

Well, I've done my thinking. Shed my anger. In the end it is a storm in a glass of water. So what have I been thinking. I cannot really point any fingers untill I know for suer it is not my food intake which is messing things up. So this week is going to be a text book week. All my water, vegetables and fruit, and especially my fat. Carbs and protein is usually not the problem. When I get home tonight I will do some planning for this week to make sure I don't stray.

Tonight I am going out to dine with Fred, my bestest friend in the whole wide world. Who by the by signed a very favorable contract today. WHOOPEE! As usual we will be going to have pizza, the decision I have now is this: do I eat all of the pizza and use some 14 points of the HUGE bulk of points I build up with my work outs (near 90 points a week), or do I fit in half a pizza? Do you people have any suggestions? I am .......at a loss.

HELP!

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Breakfast
5,0 points
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3,0 - 500 ml organic curd (low fat)
2,0 - 2tbs honey
0,0 - 2 kiwis
0,0 - 750 ml water

Lunch
8,5 points
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8,5 - chicken wrap
0,0 - mineral water
0,0 - 250 gr tomatoes (organic)

Diner
14,0 points
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14,0 - pizza
0,0 - plain salad
0,0 - coca cola light

Various
0,0 points
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0,0 - here

483 WW & 24 F days, A lifetime job, this being healthy!

Day maximum: 27,0 points
Bonuspoints used/saved/week's total saved: 8,5/0,0 /86,0
(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 0
(REQUIRED 3) vegetables: 0
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 1
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 0

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Weigh in today, fitness in the afternoon.

This keeping/getting healthy thing is keeping me busy, phew. You would think after a year and a half that thinks have gotten easier, more matter of fact. Some have.......like having enough fruit and vegetables. I am very much aware that food intake is not about AND, AND, AND, but about choices, not always wise ones, but choices none the less. You cannot have your cake AND eat it all.

But other things just will not "stick" This water thing for instance. There are times I feel like a camel. And I swear at times I feel like throwing up if I have one more drop of water. On the days that I fitness it is easy. I drink 2 liters of water just during my training alone. As for being/getting healthy, I cannot say I am loathing the work I put in it. I really I can't! But at the same time is does not mean I am constantly vigilant as to what I eat and do. It cannot be a 24 hour a day job. I do have other things to do! Like earn a living?

With my Fitness First pass I can go to any FF club in the world I want, and they have 500. This afternoon though I will go to the all ladies FF club accross from my usual haunt, just to have a look see. It looked a lot less busy when I cycled past last afternoon.

Soon I will be employing a personal trainer to help me be more effective in my training regime. But lets face it, I may not dislike my cardio work out, but I do want to lose my sweat as effectively as possible.

As for my weigh in results, tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow.............

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Breakfast
8,5 points
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2,0 - 5 rye matzes
4,0 - cheesespread
2,5 - chocolate craquotte (light product)

Lunch
0,0 points
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0,0 - here
0,0 - here

Diner
0,0 points
-------------------------------------
0,0 - here
0,0 - here

Various
0,0 points
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0,0 - mixed fresh fruit

483 WW days & 23 F days I am a good girl, I am!

Day maximum: 27,0 points
Bonuspoints used/saved/week's total saved: 2,0/25,0 /82,0
(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 4
(REQUIRED 3) vegetables:1
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 1
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 2
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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Morning has broken.........dumdedumdumdum....
*just imagine MICHAEL BUBLE and JOSH GROGAN as my grand backing vocals*

My orchids, pretty aren't they?

I am warning you you would not wish to hear me sing for real this time of the morning . Yesterday was a good day. I decided not to go to the gym in the morning as my back was really protesting. So instead I wenty after work at about 5:30 PM.

MAN OH MAN, it was BUSY! I was lucky to find a bicycle vacant. And like I said I was a good girl. I really made an effort. 15 minutes cycling, 15 minutes near running, 10 minutes cross training, and again 10 minutes cycling. All of them at 135-145 BPM, except for the last 10 minutes they were at 120 BPM. I felt so good cycling home. Mind you I did take my time in the steam room, the sauna and some relaxing reading afterwards. Most enjoyable.

While on my bicycle homewards I could not help thinking how much I enjoy working out. It is hard work, but there is an almost extatic joy that I AM doing it. I am trying to veer away from looking at the minutes; just get in a kind of trance like rythmn and keep going. That works fine with cycling and walking/running. However with the cross trainer it seems impossible. I need the chronometer to push myself one minute further, and one minute more..... and one more. Afterwards I feel especially satisfied, content and soooooooooooo relax.

Afterwards I went to visit Margreet, see how she was doing, had my low fat curd and honey at her place and cycled home an hour or so later. By then it was near 9 PM, and after some chat online (I have a close knit group of friends on MSN, yahoo, ICQ and the like) I fell in my bed. Eatwise I did good *grins* untill I stumbled on a left over bag of chocolate nuts, and had a few.

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Breakfast
5,0 points
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0,0 - 2 kiwi's
3, 0 - 500 ml curd skimmed
2,0 - 2 tbs honey

Lunch
6,0 points
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6,0 - zarzuela & chicken

Diner
10,0 points
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2,0 - 2 slices rye bread
1,0 - 4 slices of chicken
1,0 - 1 tbs mayo light
3,0 - 500 ml Curd 0% fat
2,0 - 2 tbs honey

Various
4,0 points
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4,0 - chocolate peanuts

482 WW days & 22 F days - Thought I had bailed? WRONG!

Day maximum: 27,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 0,0/0,0

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 3
(REQUIRED 3) vegetables:0
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 0
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 1
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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I AM STILL HERE AND I AM FAMOUS *waves like a loon*

It is official, I am famousssssssssssss. The website http://www.wltips.com/ requested an interview with me ages ago. I kept dragging my feet, making all kinds of excuses. But finally I sat down to it and wrote my "thang". I thought long and hard about who to put down near the botttom as inspirational sites/blogs. Eventually I choose Sayre, Nona, Joy and Spidey.

EXTRA, EXTRA, Read all about it.
Willow featured on WLTIPS.COM!!
READ IT - CLICK HERE

Want to see it, read it, bask in my famousicity, IF that is a word even?

*strikes and Emmy pose in my slinky sexy black lil thing, wips back my long blonde hair, smiles seductively at my audience, and recites my pre written address to the nation, with tears in my eyes*

First of all, I wish to thank my parents, for allowing me to get obese, the chocolate industry for sponsoring my efforts, my............no, wait......that is not it!

*smiles warmly in my multi colored cardigan and jeans, yellow striped sneakers.makes sure my short dark blond hair is less unruly, and acts more Willow like*

Seriously though, thanks all who posted to my fed up post a few days ago. Believe me it helped. One post actually made me teary eyed. The feeling still lingers, especially as I the scale tells me I have gained weight this week, and I have not really a clue how. But then what do these scales know?

On friday morning early I did go to fitness and worked out well, Margreet was there as well. A dear friend who signed up at the gym as well. Right now she needs lots of positive enforcement and support, so she is getting it from me. We laughed and worked ourselves into a sweat, then I logged her training gear and mine home, along with all the stuff from the Asia store. All the "stuff" to make sushi that is; much cheaper too. Nori is about 50% cheaper. sushi rice about 25% cheaper.

After dropping all the stuff off at home, starting a load of washing, boy fitness does create a lot of washing, I hopped on my bicycle again to do the rest of my shopping. All was in by mid day, and I actually got a little nap before leaving again. Had a lovely dinner date with a colleague discussed science, work, and more science. Then peddled home, meeting Margreet on the way. We talked for quite some time, while watching "The king and I", and finally went to bed.

Saturday was the day of my birthday party. I had prepared much, but not all. Margreet and I had a ball making sushi for 11 people. in the end we made 240 pieces of sushi, nori rolls and finger sushi. We decided that we should start a catering business making the sushi. It was actually pretty perfect. Al in all it took us some 2.5 hours to make them. We set the table, prepared the living room. I had bought two beautiful orchids to flank the sushi setting, side orders of emping, shrimp crackers, a simple salade, the customary soy sauce, chili sauce, ginger and wasabi.

I was cutting some cold meat for the evening snacks when people poured in. All 10 of them in15 minutes time. My living room was filled to capacity! My balcony was the designated smoking area. During the evening we discussed my impending kitchen project, which will be starting in october. A lot of discussions on gas supply and electrics, ceilings and floors being ripped out, in short I put on a brave face and pretended to share people's visions that we could make it work. *grins* I am a bit........apprehensive. Can you tell?

During the party I found out that Ali, the third Musketet (as in female Musketeer) in our little band - Margreet, Ali, and me- was also intending to sign up with the fitness school. So arrangements were made to go there sunday morning 11 AM, Pieter would join us, just to see if he liked it, and Valentine would do the same.

Well, all were there, except Valentine, he travelled home on sunday morning after having spent the night on my couch. Sunday morning all were there, though Pieter was a wee bit late. Ali signed up for a three months period, and we combined we lost about a bucket of sweat. We did have great fun. I joined the body balance group for the second time (did last sunday too), and actually had the idea I was doing a little bit better. My balance is crap, it really is. I need to work on that one. We ended our routine with 20 minutes cycling, and hit the steam room and the sauna, and walked out new women, tired but content. Pieter had by then left I am sure, and we met up with his mother to go watch the movie Mama Mia a third time at the cinema. I was home by 6 PM, and actually.............too pooped to pop. Can you imagine that?

This morning no fitness. I am going there this afternoon, my back is too weak. Body balance, a mix of Tai Chi, Pilates and Yoga has made quite an impression on it. So I am giving it most of the day to recuperate and will do my fitness tonight.

So, here it is my justification for not blogging. Think I got away with it?

Food wise I have not done bad. Sushi will not break the bank, and dinner on friday was tenderloin and risotto, starters was soup, and I did not have any dessert. Yesterday was hard work at the gm after a breakfast of 4 slices of bread with chicken and some with jam. My only major transgression was getting my nose into a bag of chocolate covered peanuts. Bad Willow, bad!!

The read out of the scales at the gym showed me I gained weight, but additionally also showed me a greater percentage in muscle tissue, and less in fat tissue. Perhaps that is the explanation for the weight gain? IF there actually is any. I also know I am retaining water as my period is coming up. Well, we'll see. I just know I am doing my best, and I feel like I am doing GOOD!
Sushi for lunch tomorrow I think! I have to think what to eat now, have not had any breakfast yet.

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Breakfast
0,0 points
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Lunch
9,0 points
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4,0 - 4 crackers and cheesespread light
5,0 - 6 pieces of sushi

Diner
0,0 points
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0,0 - here
0,0 - here

Various
3,0 points
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3,0 - ricepudding

478 WW days & 18 F days - FED UP, I am FED UP!

Day maximum: 28,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 9,0/0,0

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 0,0/4,0
Day´s excercise - cycling &Fitness: 60 + 90 minutes Activity points: 4,0

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 2
(REQUIRED 3) vegetables:0
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 0
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 0

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I should be, but I am not content

WATCH OUT Willow ranting, feeling sorry for herself
Just close this window and look for my post tomorrow if you are not in the mood for it

Weigh in showed I lost 1.8 lbs, and I am not happy. I know I should be, and it is ungrateful not to be. But well it sort of hits me that if I lose 1.8 lbs a week, it will take another 61 weeks. *BIG SIGH*

FLIPPIN' SIXTY ONE WEEKS!!

That would make it 22 September 2009. Today it seems like there is no end to it. I am feeling low, blue, and dishearted. Does not mean I will not stop my efforts. not in the least. But today my enthousiasm is suffering.

If I take a look at the last 5 weeks, I lost 12.4 lbs, in that way it will be 45 weeks.

a little less flippin' forty one weeks

That would make it June 3, 2009. One day before my birthday. which is 2.7 lbs a week.

I know, I know I am getting number crazy. Nearly 500 days, and I today I am sort of fed up. Not with the adjustment in food or excercise, but just the whole package. I guess today more than any other in a long time I want to be like other people, other women. And I am going to say it, though I know people will react fiercely.........I want to be pretty! Yes pretty according to shallow stupid advertisement standards.

I want to be pretty, attractive, alluring, sexy, a vamp, a babe, a seductress,

Behind that remark is a whole world, wrapped in tears, self incriminations and heartache. The pain of a non rational woman, just a feeling woman. And in 99.9% of my days, hours, minutes, she does not show, well wrapped and hidden inside. BUT she is there and I am not going to spare you that part of me. Though I suspect some/most of you recognise that feeling.

Comments are welcome, but be kind, or I will hit back hard! -smiles wryly-

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Breakfast
4,5 points
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2,0 - 4 craquottes
2,5 - cheesespread 10% fat

Lunch
4,5 points
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4,5 - sushi

Diner
0,0 points
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0,0 - here
0,0 - here

Various
0,0 points
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0,0 - here

477 WW & 17 F days, weigh in

Day maximum: 28,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 14,5/0,0

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 8,0/94,0
Day´s excercise - cycling &Fitness: 60 + 40 minutes Activity points: 15,0

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 2
(REQUIRED 3) vegetables:0
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 2
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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One more week

the countdown is really on. Two and ahalf more weeks and I will be doing WW for a total of 500 days. That is 71 one odd weeks, but also some euro 560, estimating I will have lost 32 kg/72 lbs, that comes down to euro 17,5 a kg, or euro 7,80 a lbs.

To be honest that is not what I had in mind, but from november 2007 to july 2008 I have been doddling, dragging my heels, taking it easy, slacking. The visits to WW during this period served to NOT lat me slack more than I did, and to kep my focus forward. It took a while for me to get back on track again, but I never did veer far away. It was more a matter of alternating bad weeks with good weeks, resulting in the end in a 30 lbs/14 kg weightgain. I am still working to get rid of them; 18 lbs to go. In a way seeing this spelled out black on white is demotivating, or rather it makes me feel bad about myself.

BUT I will strive to get back to the 91 lbs weightloss and beyond that, no matter how bad it makes me feel to read what ground was lost. Up to now I told people I had gained "some "weight, but that is a cop out.

So onwards! On y va!

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Breakfast
6,0 points
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5,0 - curd
1,0 - 1 tbs honey

Lunch
5,5 points
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2,5 - 5 cracottes
3,0 - cheese spread 10% fat

Diner
0,0 points
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0,0 - here
0,0 - here

Various
0,0 points
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3,0 - elderberryflower juice

476 WW & 16 F days, a lazy day

Day maximum: 28,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 15,0/0,0

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 8,0/79,0
Day´s excercise - cycling : 60 minutes Activity points: 4,0

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 4
(REQUIRED 3) vegetables:0
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 0
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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Roleplay, and a lazy day

No fitness today, though I was tempted to go to the gym this morning. However one of my other hobbies has been suffering these past few week. Usually in the morning I roleplay on line, a sort of play acting on line. You create a character walk into a roleplayroom/chatroom, and act out an impromptu setting.

Always a creative narrative challenge, and when you have done it as long as I have you befriend people so there is some "out of character chat"as well. With the gym and all other things combined I am not as much in the room as I used to be. In fact I am seldom there. So this morning I did an hours worth of roleplay. Mind you 95% of the people are American, so most of the serious roleplay is done when I am snug as a bug in a rug in my bed.

My latetst creation, now about 8 months old is Ana., a bedouine girl, married to a man she likes at best, but who usually scares, baffles, annoys and intimidates her. He rules the land of Baash, and is an amazing character. All this is fun to play as long as people remember it is puppets we play, and NOT ourselves!

The day after yesterday

I am still a wee bit numb, or not there. It is not really the effect of Willemijne being gone. That will probably take a bit longer to sink in, but more the very surreal episode of Pet Rescue which was played out in my house. Only in this case the pet did not survive. The image of an highly emeciated dead cat, who happened to be my beloved Willemijne is still very visible in my mind. I wonder if I could have done more?

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Breakfast
4,0 points
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3,0 - 300 ml curd
1,0 - 1 tbs honey

Lunch
0,0 points
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11,0 - sushi

Diner
0,0 points
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0,0 - here
0,0 - here

Various
0,0 points
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4,0 - 4 cookies, organic orange hazelnut

475 WW days & 15 F days

Day maximum: 27,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 0,0/0,0

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 8,0/75
Day´s excercise - cycling &Fitness: 60 + 30 minutes Activity points: 16,0

REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 4
(REQUIRED 3) vegetables:0
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 0
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 0
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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A moment to remember Willemijne

This morning I found my little feline girl unable to lift her head, unable to eat and she was so very tired, so weak. I phoned the vet, and they said drop her by and we will keep an eye on her. She never made it that far. She died while in the carry all, on my way to the vet. When I walked in I had trouble controlling my sadness.

The vet looked at her, examined her and confirmed her heart had stopped. I caressed her for a very short time, and then left her there. She was, like I posted yesterday, a cat who lived her own quiet life, and yet she could not survive on her own. A kind of love hate relation ship with human beings in general. Sometimes she would crawl underneath the covers with me and lay in the hollow at the small at my back, snuggling close. But she did not wish me to pet her. Just leave her alone and she would fall asleep with me. That was about once every two months.

She would be there when food was issued, and sometimes walked in the room when I had guests, but usually she just stayed in the side room, the large drawer of the cupboard her domain. That is where I found her this morning. She was barely alive, barely responded.

The one concellation I have is that she spent her last day, her last night at home. She did not die outside and alone. The strange thing is, her brother Boudewijn never missed her one moment in the past 5 weeks. I did, and now I will have to miss her completely, my grumpy little cat girl.

Willemijne

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Breakfast
5,0 points
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3,0 - 500 ml curd
2,0 - 2 tbs honey

Lunch
9,0 points
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9,0 - 3 packages Sultana

Diner
0,0 points
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0,0 - here
0,0 - here

Various
0,0 points
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0,0 - here

474 WW days & 14 F days - Film review: Get Smart!

Day maximum: 27,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 22,0/4,0

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 8,0/75,0
Day´s excercise - cycling &Fitness: 60 + 120 minutes Activity points: 40,0

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 6
(REQUIRED 3) vegetables:2
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 2
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 3

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My cat Willemijne
Willemijne and her brother Boudewijn came to live with me some 10 years ago. And now she has been missing for the last 5 to 6 weeks. She must have jumped off the balcony; that or fell off. She is a shy cat, very shy. Not very good with people at all. Even with me she seldom "fraternises". I have spread pamflets around, but she never showed. I just know it was because she is just to scared of people. She will never show herself when there is any one around. I have soent

She was found today! A neighbour called me that he had found her in his garden. She is in a hoorible state. Totally emeciated. I put her on a small cushion, gave her some fish and water. She drank the water, so I am a little more at ease. But the poor thing can hardly walk, she is just too weak. In a way I feel so guilty, not having looked harder. I will keep you all posted.

Get Smart; movie review.

I liked it, though admittedly the jokes were old, and easy to predict. Don't expect any big scenario surprises, or brilliant acting worth an oscar. But having said that, it is a fun movie, worth watching with a bag of popcorn in one hand and . Worth watching twice? Actually yes, but that may have been te resulot of the fact that I had to go to the bathroom mid movie. Though I did not miss much so I summised from the movie as I sat back down again.

As for a grade? I would say a 7.5, but only WITH popcorn.

Now as for my sunday? I took a friend to the gym, introduced her to the "toment"of sweat and moving your muscles with resistance set to high. In the end she decided to sign a year's contract with the Gyn, A bold decision, I signed up for three months. It will give me chance to see if I can put my intentions where my mouth is. To see if I can keep the 4 times a week routine up . so far so good. I weighed today on the scales they have there, and ewill do so every sunday. It means I will have a have abenchmark every sunday (gym) and wednesday (weight watchers).

My clothes show me that something is happening, even if I do not stand on the scales. They fit better. The one pair of heans I own are loose round the calves by now, which was not the case about 2 weeks ago. I am really looking forward to wednesday.

OH yes, and as for yestreday and my food intake. I played Catan at Jannie's and Gerard's. I did win 3 times, Jannie ccoked very light. I was the one who brough chocolate truffels for the occasion though. Had some crackers and cheese in the evening. All in all I will add 8 extra points needed to my tally.

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Breakfast
4,0 points
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2,0 - z slices rye bread
0,5 - 2 slices of chicken
1,0 - 1 tbs applesyrup
0,5 - margarine (low fat)

Lunch
6,0 points
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3,0 - 500 ml curd
3,0 - 3 tbs honey

Diner
7,0 points
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2,0 - risotto
2,0 - 1 tbs olive oil
3,0 - fish fried in pan
0,0 - 3 tomatoes

Various
5,0 points
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5,0 - 1,5 slices carrotcake with chocolate

472 WW days & 12 F days - Movie Friday - GET SMART!

Day maximum: 27,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 0,0/0,0

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 0,0/35,0
Day´s excercise - cycling & Fitness: 80 + 60 minutes Activity points: 27,0

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 6
(REQUIRED 3) vegetables:0
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 0
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 0
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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Why does it feel different from day to day?

Fitness was hard this morning. Not too hard, but hard. And I am glad I have a day to recuperate. My muscles are very "present". I think it may have to do with the fact that I am much more serious about how hard I drive myself. I am now on a routine of 10 mins cycling, 10 minutes tredmill, 13 minutes cross trainer, which includes the cool down. And please bear in mind I log about 300+ lbs with me while I do *grin*

Today I managed to get my HR to 135 on all three. It proved to difficult to go to the full 141. I had to push myself too hard to get to 141. So I just accepted the fact that it was less effective today. BUT, I still feel DARN good to be doing this, and sticking to it.

Yesterday I used dramatically too little points, and it was not even on purpose. I used only 27out of 27 points. I just did not pay attention. Will have to keep an eye on that. I used no added fat at all. And as we all know breaking down body fat required essential ingredients found in FAT! One day of less point cannot be a problem, and I think it is defenitely a one off occasion.

GET SMART!

Not saying you are not! But today is movie friday, so we are eating out. Fish on the menu, and french fries. So I will keep my lunch down to a minimum. This afternoon some vegetables for certain as I think there won't be much of that on my plate. As for movies "Get smart" is on the menu. A good helping of Steve Carell, a side order of Anne Hathaway, and a dash of Dwayne Johnson. I have been looking forward to that for some time. It has been advertaised for months! I am usually not one for these kinds of movies, but what I saw I know I liked very much.

Get smart was a tv series which was aired between 1965 and 1970. I never saw it, I was only a toddler then, not even in school yet! The offical synopsis of the film is this:

"In the all-new action comedy “Get Smart,” Maxwell Smart (Steve Carell) is on a mission to thwart the latest plot for world domination by the evil crime syndicate known as KAOS. When the headquarters of U.S. spy agency Control is attacked and the identities of its agents compromised, the Chief (Alan Arkin) has no choice but to promote his ever-eager analyst Maxwell Smart, who has always dreamt of working in the field alongside stalwart superstar Agent 23 (Dwayne “The Rock” Johnson). Smart is partnered instead with the only other agent whose identity has not been compromised: the lovely-but-lethal veteran Agent 99 (Anne Hathaway). As Smart and 99 get closer to unraveling KAOS’ master plan—and each other—they discover that key KAOS operative Siegfried (Terence Stamp) and his sidekick Shtarker (Kenneth Davitian) are scheming to cash in with their network of terror. Given little field experience and even less time, Smart—armed with nothing but a few spy-tech gadgets and his unbridled enthusiasm—must defeat KAOS if he is to save the day."

Get Smart official website - opens a new window

old tv series

movie 2008

I will report back tomorrow on what I really thought of it! Tune in again tomorrow!

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Breakfast
5,0 points
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3,0 - 500 gr. Curd
2,0 - 2 tbs honey

Lunch
0,0 points
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0,0 - LARGE gurkin
2,0 - 250 gr. curd
1,0 - 1 tbs honey

Diner
0,0 points
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0,0 - here
0,0 - here

Various
0,0 points
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0,0 - here

471 WW days & 11 F days - Weigh in week 67 Officially back on track!

Day maximum: 28,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 17,0/4,0

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 0,0/8,0
Day´s excercise - cycling : 60 minutes Activity points: 4,0

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 6
(REQUIRED 3) vegetables:3
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 0
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

Too little fat used, too little points used!

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Curious about me week results?


This week I LOST 4.9 lbs/2.2 kg! I am very proud of myself and I think I can safely say I have broken the upward trend. The last four weeks I have lost 10.4 lbs/4.8 kg. as follows:

67. 4.9 lbs/2.2 kg loss
66. 2.6 lbs/1.2 kg loss
65. 0.9 lbs/0.4 kg GAIN
64. 3.9 lbs/1.8 kg loss

This morning I got into a very interesting discussion with the girl at check 0ut counter at the EKO Plaza ( I get my biological breakfast there). She was curious about my fitness programme - I get 5% discount when I show my membership card-, and I explained to her that I go 4 times a week. She was impressed, which always makes me feel so.......proud. She explained how she has always been underweight, and struggled with it too.

We discussed, it was early and no one in the shop, what we felt was behind it. She talked about periods of starvation because she needed security, protection. We did not discuss how starving herself would get her that. But it struck me that being underweight is just as big a problem as being overweight. Perhaps even worse. Because people only start to comment when it gets to anorexic proportions. Antything above that is "nice and slender" or even petite. And on top of that it is easier to hide in baggy clothes.

And how do you add the pounds? Start drinking cream, gobbling down donuts and bags and bags of fried foods? I don't think so! In fact I think it is just as hard even. These people are so geared to eating less, too little, that eating more, more fat, mure sugar is naturally repulsive to them. Anyways, it was an interesting conversation, and I must say a very nice woman to talk to.

It did make me think about my own need to eat. Do I actually binge, and if I do so, do I emotively eat? Well, I seldom binge; though I still catch my self at emotional eating. And sometimes because I have just eaten a whole bar of chocolate to console myself, reward myself, give me confidence, I think what the heck I might as well have another, or have fried food in the evening. One "slip up"is like a carte blanche for a whole day of slip ups. I don't think that constitutes as a true binge, does it?

BUT, I was and am an emotional eater. I eat when I am happy (PARTY!), when I am sad (WOE IS ME!), lonely (NOBODY LOVES ME!), angry (WHAT THE F&%*$K!), victory (REWARD TIME!). Actually any emotion will do. In the past 15 months I have at least started to recognise the emotions and my reactions to them. I have even atrtempted and succeeded in harnassing them at times.

My pandora bracelet, to the loyal readers a recurring important feature, is my rewards system.

Quote from my blogpost on 26 june 2007

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Weight Loss Resolutions
1. every 3,5 kilo; a silver charm
2. every 8 kilo; a gold and silver charm
3. every hour on my hometrainer; a spacer, hour can build up in several days, a day of rest, I start from scratch
4. at 40 kilo; a new bracelet or necklace

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I have by now added a 2nd bracelet, and have 22 charms (and 10 more for birthdays and the like occasions) and 17 spacers. At the moment I am on hold with the charms as I gained weight in the past months. When I reach 288.4 lbs/130.8 kg, I am back on schedule. THEN I will award myself one golden charm, as it will have been ONE hard struggle, as in 22.5 lbs/10.8 kg to go!
I just realised, it means that the past 6 or 7 odd months have been a 35 lbs/16.5 kg struggle. A shame to see how much weight I gained during that time. And I was still really trying! I never really quit going to the meetings, though I did sneak off once or twice.

Short time goal set

Target: 299.8/136 kg
When: friday 12 september 2008 (wednesday 10 september 2008)
Why 1: 500 days of WW
Why 2: 3rd 10% target made
How: 11 lbs/5 kg -> 2.8 lbs/1.3 kg a week

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Breakfast
5,0 points
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3,0 - curd low fat (organic)
2,0 - honey
0,0 - blue berries (organic)

Lunch
3,0 points
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0,0 - tomatoes (organic)
3,0 - cracker with tomato cheese cream
3,0 - Panini - organic brown bread
2,0 - Cheese spread with hot peppers

Diner
6,0 points
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2,0 - basmati rice
3,0 - fish from the gril
0,0 - Peppers
1,0 - sweet sour sauce

Various
3,0 points
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3,0 - baconcrackers

470 days - peaceful day, personal challenges met

Day maximum: 28,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 40,0/12,0

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 29,0/102,0
Day´s excercise - Cycling (heavy) &Fitness: 120 + 90 minutes Activity points: 30,0

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 2
(REQUIRED 3) vegetables:0
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 2
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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Peace...........like zen...........so restful

It rained this morning, so I stayed indoors about 20 minutes longer before I went to the Gym. My programme, about an hour and 15 mins in total was like this:

Warming up 10 min (resulting in 4.5 mins at HR 141)
Tredmill 10 mins at HR 141
Cross trainer 10 mins at HR 145, 3 mins cool down to HR 114
Steam room, shower, dress, blow dry hair

As I was running late I did not do my usual muscle training, but I was extremely content with the cross trainer excercise. It is a heavy training for me, involving most major muscle groups. And where I started with an akward 3 minutes last wednesday I am now up to 10 mins at full speed. To this end I put some work out music on my telephone and pumped away. I know I have to he careful as it is a strain on my knees. But so far so good.

I also tried the skating trainer, but I have to admit I do not like it, defenitely not Willow material. The sideways motion is quite a strain on my knees, and I found I have problems getting the coordination of it down. So I sort of stumbled along like a drunk snail and stopped after 2 mins. I don't like it one bit, uh, uh! Reminds my why I am so crap at skating! On friday I will try the rowing machine, and I am curious about that on. I have an idea I may like that one.

As I left I bought some low fat curd at the bio shop, including two kiwis and enjoyed them both when I arrived at the office. I have a wonderfully peaceful feeling, I feel really good. My facial skin is improving by leaps and bounds. I would think it feels tight and dry from the sauna and steam room, but it is definitely NOT the case. In fact my facial skin feels relaxed, smooth and soft.

I have to say the benefits of fitness are more than losing weight. So much more! Tonight is weighing night and movie night. So I will be busy, busy, busy. Work will be quiet for a few more days, so I will enjoy it as long as it lasts.

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Breakfast
6,0 points
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3,0 - curd 0% fat
3,0 - 3 cs honey

Lunch
11,0 points
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3,0 - 500 ml curd low fat
2,0 - 2 cs honey
6,0 - 2 wasa crackers

Diner
5,0 points (Movie time)
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5,0 - hot & spicey crackers

Various
18,0 points
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4,0 - popcorn
3,0 - ballisto
11,0 - chcolate bisquits

469 days - Lots and lots of sleep

Day maximum: 28,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 42,0/14,0

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 17,0/72,0
Day´s excercise - cycling &Fitness: 60 + 90 minutes Activity points: 0,0

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 6
REQUIRED 3) vegetables:0
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 2
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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Waiting for .........tomorrow!

Yesterday I had a huge sugar craving in the evening and I guess I could have controlled it. But the point is I did not. I did not have any sugary items in the house, except for some cake decorations shaped like jungle animals. I ate them all, and they were gone in.............3 minutes! BAD willow, really bad Willow.

It did not damage my diet as I have so many excercise points saved up, and my day was a splendid day in all other ways. Although I could have had more vegetables I think. But as for "no added sugar", well that went out the window yesterday: ROYALLY!

But today is a new day, and I am doing well. My colleague just planted some birthday treats in front of me, so I will have a look as to what is wisest, a muffin or a slice of creamcake. Will report! Well, I choose the muffin, and calculated 5 points or it. Means my treat for the day has been and gone, and is now safely inside my stomach.

Well, many more treats followed, and my dinner has gone done in the shape of some cheese and ham bisquits. I can sense I am sort of trading off. "Well since you have done such a good job the rest of the week this won't matter much". How easy it is to fool yourself!

So? What does it al mean?

I have had people comment on the top part of my blogs/ Anywhere from "I just don't get it" to "I never read it". So for their benefit and anyone else who wants to read it, here goes:

Day maximum: 28,0 points

"Day Maximimum": Based on your weight, gender, age, and activity level during the day weightwatchers calculates a number of points to be used daily maximising you weightloss. As I lose weight this number drops about point every 10 kg/ 22 lbs.

Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 0,0/0,0

"Day's bonus points used": This line is like a status report, how many points have I used during the day.
"Day's bonus points saved": At the end of the day I am allow to save 4 points to cover any big splurges on other days.

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 0,0/0,0

"Week´s Bonuspoints needed": this tracks the points I may have used to much during the week. It should at the end of the week ALWAYS be less than the points saved.
"Week´s Bonuspoints saved": this shows how many points I have saved during the week, and will cover the extra points used during the week. This number includes the points I have gained by doing exercise. NOTE: though you can use the points you have accumulated through exercising it is not advised. Now and then I "nibble"at them, but usually don't use them.

Day´s excercise - cycling &Fitness: 60 + 90 minutes Activity points: 0,0

"Day´s excercise": Here I record all points gained by excercising. I hardly ever use them, though at times when I am really hungry after excercise I do allow myself an energy bar, a currant bun or something like it. As my metabolism is at a high they will most probably burn up immediately. Weightwatchers has a handy table to calculate these points.

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 0
(REQUIRED 3) vegetables:0
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 0
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 0
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 0

Weight Watchers goes from the premises that losing weight needs to be done HEALTHY, but also that after a person has reached their target weight that they should be equipped enough to be able to eat normal portions again without going ballistic on food denied while they were dieting.

It means that Weight Watchers does not ban any kind of food. WWers can eat anything, but our diet must contain 6 large glasses of fluid, preferably water ; 3 large handfulls of vegetables (300 grams); 2 pieces of fruit (small handfull), 2 tablespoons of fat (butter, oil, mayonaise etc.); 500 ml of non/ low fat calcium product (milk, yoghurt, curd, cheese etc.).

Each food item I eat has a points value, add them all up and make sure you stay on your daily maximum. It is a lot of counting at first but after 469 days I know most items by heart!

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Breakfast
8,5 points
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2,0 - 2 slices of rye bread
1,0 - 2 cs margerine light
1,0 - 4 slices of chicken
2,5 - 250 gr. curd (0% fat) - not my own brand...a bit yeagh!
2,0 - 2 tbs honey

Lunch
4,5 points
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2,5 - 250 gr. curd (0% fat)
2,0 - tbs honey
0,0 - 2 kiwis

Diner
24,0 points
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24,0 - cheese onion crackers

Various
5,0 points
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5,0 - Muffin

468 days - Olympics while I sweat

Day maximum: 28,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 31,0/0,0

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 3,0/72,0
Day´s excercise - cycling &Fitness: 60 + 60 minutes Activity points: 26,0
Sunday´s excercise - cycling &Fitness: 40 + 60 minutes Activity points: 15,0

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 6
REQUIRED 3) vegetables:2
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 2
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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Another week starts and I feel GRAND

I kno, I know, I know. I did not blog yesterday, for the simple reason that I was way to busy. Fitness in the morning went well. Then I had lunch at George's . Goerge is the cook to the American Ambassador in The Netherlands, so lunch at his place is a treat. Then home at 4 PM as I had a guest for dinner. I made sushi, and a salad with sweet red pepper, cumcumber ricewhine and chili peppers.

Fitness yesterday was not as active as I had hoped but for some reason my muscles ached and were tired, more so than usual. The "muscle"machines were claimed by a horde of body builders, so I decided not to make a fool of myself by doing my 'thang' there. To be honest I just did not have the gumption to do it.

So I attacked the cross trainer, the bicycle and the tredmill. I am now on 5 mins cardio training for the cross trainer which is quite an achievement. I have to admit that I can see how it can be very addictive, once you get the right rythm going, preferably to music that makes you "jam" you can really keep going. I will be doing some serious music downloading on my creative. Because I want to crank up the time to 10 minutes, and I think some music will do the trick.

I have noticed that getting my heartbeat up to 141 optimum for cardio is hard work. I can get it up to 130 with some good old fashioned legwork after about 5 mins, but the last 10 is HARD work, real hard. But I manage usually after about 8 minutes, and keep it up for about 2 minutes. yesterday and today I got on the tread mill and did 10 minutes at a good pace. It is a near run, but I keep myself from running, because I know the impact on my knees is just going to be too big. For now I stick to low impact, and will be for some time to come. I want to wait to do that untill I am under 110 kg/242 lbs.

On wednesday I may go swimming, 30 minutes or so. Have not done that yet. Eventhough I love swimming! we'll see. Today I can feel my lower back, and the tops of my hips. Today I did muscle training for my upper body. Tomorrow I will be working on my lower body, legs, stomach, hips. I have noticed a drastic difference in my facial skin. I think due to the steam room and the sauna my skin is cleaner, less infammated and has a peach like feel to it.

Basically we are talking Fitess and Wellnessin one package. I am feeling FITter, not fit yet, and very WELL. So it works. Additionally it really keeps me on the straight and narrow food wise. When I go back to my bicycle I go one extra foor down to huge health store super market, everything there is organic, and I get my cud for the morning, and if I feel like it some juice as well. Yesterday I had elderberry juice, but found out after I drank it, it had added honey to it. I am really trying to cut out added sugars. And that also includes added honey. Even if it is organic!

This week is a 5 x 8 hour week. Which is easier on my schedule. Means I can leave at 5:15 PM today. I will have a kip when I get back! Have a nice day today! Enjoy it!

Oh yes, and I had a go at the scales they have at the gym. BAD move, very bad move. I was not fazed by the weight it indicated, because it actually means I have lost weight. But it tells me my body fat mass as well..................62%! -grins- I really am a tub of lard! BUT the good thing is it will go down, so it will only get better!

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Breakfast
6,0 points
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3,0 - ml curd 0 % fat
3,0 - 3tbs honey

Lunch
8,0 points
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2,0 - 200 ml cranberry juice
6,0 - 2 slices biological carrotcake

Diner
5,0 points
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3,0 - salmon
0,0 - salad, cucumber, peppers
2,0 - mayonaise

Various
12,0 points
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6,0 - eierkoek (dutch pastry like object, made with eggs)
6, 0 some sort of sugar thingies (BAD, BAD WILLOW)

466 days - Count my blessings day

Day maximum: 28,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 26,5/0,0

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 0,0/31,0
Day´s excercise - cycling: 10 Activity points: 1,0

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 2
REQUIRED 3) vegetables:0
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 1
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 2
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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A day for comparisons

All comparisons below are between May 3, 2007 and August 9, 2008. There is a 466 days OR 15 months and 6 days OR 64 weeks and 3 days gap between the two dates. But it is not just days that mark the difference. Read about my story set out in simple facts about.....me.

-----------------2007.------- --- ------------ ------------2008

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------------------- 380.9 lbs/172.8 kg. - - . ---------yyy--------- - 315.7lbs/143.4 kg

Upper arm -----41 cm/16.1 inch -- ----------------- -.--------hh---- 36 cm/14.2 inch
Waist ----- ---- - 150 cm/59.1. - . -ffffff-------------- -------hhf------ f138 cm/54.3 inch

Hips ------- ----- 170 cm/66.9 inch- . - . ------------ -----------hh-- - 156 cm/61.4 inch

Right thigh ---- 76 cm/29.9 inch- ------------------ ----------- --h-- 69/27.2 inch

I use much more vegetables, more fruit, I excercise MUCH more (well to be honest my only excercise then was doing my shopping), I own a brand new bicycle and go everywhere with it, I don't drink any soda which is not light, and then just a few a week, I use brown rice, pasta and bread, instead of the whate variations, I use half fat or low fat milk products. I eat very little candy, though chocalate is still my down fall. I never have crisps or dips in the house, only eat them when I am at a party.

My skin has improved, my abillity for tissue regeneration after I wound myself has increased drastically. I enjoy going out, movies, family, friends, dinner dates. I love sunshine and being outdoors, I have to be outside once a day at least. I have the stamina and strength to do serious DIY in my house, and have done up my bedroom with help from my friends!

I have more energy, do not feel beat at the end of the day, but enjoy my evenings. I sleep more and earlier. I have changed from a strictly evening and night person, to an all day person depending on the activities in the morning. I love my early mornings, a sleep sound, deep and healthy.

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Breakfast
7,5 points
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2,0 - 2 rye slices of bread
0,5 - becel light margerine
1,0 - chicken
4,0 - ricepudding

Lunch
7,0 points
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2,0 - 2 rye slices of bread
0,5 - becel light margerine
1,0 - liver
0,5 - cheese spread low fat
3,0 - currantbun

Diner
3,0 points
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1,0 - shrimp
1,0 - olive oil
1,0 - rice, vegetables

Various
9,0 points
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3,0 - 500 ml curd
2,0 - 2 cs honey

6,0 - 2 currantbuns

465 days - FFF day aka ME day

Day maximum: 28,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 0,0/0,0

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 0,0/30,0
Day´s excercise - cycling &Fitness: 120 + 90 minutes Activity points: 30,0
Accumulated Activity points: 0 points

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 6
REQUIRED 3) vegetables:0
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 0
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 0

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FFF-day

Fitness: 10 minutes warming up cycling, 15 minutes tredmil, 30 minutes of muscle training, 10 minutes 15 minutes steam room, 10 minutes sauna
Floating: 90 minutes of epson salt water, no light, no sound, no weight
Film: Wall-E and The Mummy Returns

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Breakfast
3,5 points
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2,0 - 2 rye slices of bread
0,5 - becel light margerine
1,0 - chicken

Lunch
3,5 points
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2,0 - 2 rye slices of bread
0,5 - becel light margerine
1,0 - chicken
0,0 - here

Diner
0,0 points
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0,0 - here
0,0 - here

Various
3,0 points
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3,0 - sultana fruit of the forest
0,0 - orangejuice
0,0 - orange juice and strawberry juice

464 days

Day maximum: 28,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 23,0/4,0

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 0,0/4,0
Day´s excercise - none: Activity points: 0,0

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 0
REQUIRED 3) vegetables:03
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 0
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 2
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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Clean slate - aka wipes away lots and lots of WW points

I lost 2.6 lns/1.2 kg last week. But oddly enough I was not very happy. Possibly because I just threw a five week old dead bird in a rubbish bin, or bcause I had hoped for more after the fitness things I did? I really have no clue, but I feel a wee bit down.

I eat too little at the moment, basically because I have no shopping in the house. So I just eat what I have wich is very little. So tomorrow is shopping day. I have my regular friday off, and I have a floating session, go to the movies. Floating should be fun with the blister I have on my heel. will have to cover it well. Also I will do my regular 7 AM fitness session, or perhaps I will go just before the movie. Will have a think about that.

Reminder to self: DRINK water!!

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Breakfast
6,5 points
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4,5 - rice pudding
1,0 - 1 rye sices of bread
1,0 - tomato tapenade

Lunch
7,5 points
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4,0 - 4 ryes slices of bread
3,5 - 7 slices of chicken
0,0 - mustard

Diner
6,0 points
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2,0 - 250 gr. potatoe
1,0 - 2 cs olive oil
0,0 - assorted vegetables
3,0 - river lobster

Various
2,5,0 points
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2,5 - curly wurly

463 days

Wednesday 6 August

Day maximum: 28,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 21,0/4,0

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 12,0/85,5
Day´s excercise - cycling &Fitness: 60 + 60 minutes Activity points: 17,0

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 0
REQUIRED 3) vegetables:0
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 0
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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An early bird, but no wurms!

I was up by 5 AM. Don't ask me why, but I am buzzing with energy. My little bird friend is doing just fine, and I have decided to call him/her kruimeltje/crumbs. It will be another 20 odd weeks before I can tell if it is a boy or a girl crumbs.

Cycled to fitness, nd was doing my warm up by 07:05. It is hard work to get to HR 140, but even harder to keep it going. Friday I will push myself a little further still. Did some weight resistance ecercises, and afterwards wanted to do some wlking/running, but the blister on my right heel is too raw yet. And so I hopped on the bicycle again. I finished off with sauna AND steamroom, then washed and groomed. I must say it is a joy to feel my body rev up with the "feel good" feeling. I am working on my health, my body, my stamina, and it is a treat.

at work all is extremely quiet. As I have to feed crumbs this afternoon, I will be taking half a day off today, and enjoy some sunshine. I think I will take a book and go read in some park nearby. soak up some sun. it is going to be a glorious day. That or go to the movies.....

For dinner I am thinking salmon and salad. For lunch..........no idea.Oh yes, and today I go weigh at WW. We'll see. Oddly enough I don't have a good feeling about it.

DECEASED: today at 6:45 PM my new little friend was moving around the cage. Suddenly it sort of waggled like a duck, fell over and died. Its sibling was pecked to death by its parents, and Kruimeltje was removed by the breeder before he suffered the same fate. They say nature take cares of the weak before they grow into maturity. I don't think Crumbs, just like its subling, was meant to live.

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Breakfast
7,0 points
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5,0 - Optimel low fact peach curd
0,0 - 500 gr. frsh strawberries
2,0 - 2 tbs sugar

Lunch
4,0 points
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2,0 - 2 rye bread
2,0 - 20 gr. tapanade tomato

Diner
0,0 points
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NONE!

Various
10,0 points
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10,0 - chocolate

462 days

Tuesday 2 August

Day maximum: 28,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 39,0/11,0

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 12,0/64,5
Day´s excercise - cycling : 60 minutes Activity points: 4,0

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 5
REQUIRED 3) vegetables: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 2
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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A new guest in my house

Today I go and pick up my 5 week old Agapornis, or as they are known in English "Lovebird". he still has to be fed by hand for a week or two, three. But that will make it easier to make him quite tame. I have no clue if it is a boy or a girl, so I have been thinking about a name:

Kruimeltje/Crumbs
Dot
Ana
Timmy
Izabeau
Sylvester
Jade

This is the site photograph where I found her/him. I will post my own photograph soon.

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Breakfast
11,0 points
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2,0 - 2 rye bread
2,0 - 10 gr. herb butter
3,0 - 500 ml curd
2,0 - 2 tbs honey

Lunch
9,0 points
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9,0 - small ready meal with tortelini, ricotta spinach and aubergine

Diner
9,0 points
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1,0 - 75 gr. marinated chicken
6,0 - french fries
0,0 - beansprouts, onion, grlic
2, 0 - mayonaise

Various
10,0 points
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2,0 - small kinder chocolate bar
8,0 - 2 treacle cookies

461 days

Monday 4 August

Day maximum: 28,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 20,5/4,0

Week´s Bonuspoints (including activity points) needed/saved: 1,0/60,8
Day´s excercise - cycling &Fitness: 60 + 90 minutes Activity points: 26,0

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 4
REQUIRED 3) vegetables: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 2
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 0
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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The Euphoria still lasts...in FULL force

oh, and my RealAge is 43,6 - I just turned 44!

After a strange kind of night, sort of half wake half deep sleep state, I got up at 6 AM. Whenever I know I wish to be up at an early time, it so pre occupies my mind that I am almost reluctant to sleep. I had breakfast and cycled to the Gym. I took a sauna and steambath today, after 1 hour of fitness. I can feel it in my legs as I worked on those today, abductors and adductors hips, leg press. and some 30 minutes of cardio, trying to bring my HR to 140. But this week I will stick to 130 for now.

I must say after getting through my first inhibitions, it was wonderful to experience the steambath and the sauna. Both were HOT, HOT, HOT! and the cold shower after was really MURDER. I feel good, though muscles protest, and the blister on my right foot is not a happy bunny experience.

My food intake is exemplary. Feeling good about yourself in my case means being good to myself; doing the right thing, the fun thing, the challenging thing I realise. Fitness for instance is to me EXTEREMELY challenging, it is not easy, but it IS fun.

I was reading, FINALLY, some of my fellow blogger's blogs and ~stumbled~ on Half man's 10% chart. Weight watchers teaches us that 10% loss in weight had GREAT benefits to heart, bloodpressure, and diabetes. So he made a 10 % list. He went back and figured out his 10% body weight loss marks. He took his starting weight and subtracting 10%. Then he subtracted 10% of that, and so on down to his goal weight. It gives him some more benchmarks.

I have decided to do so too, from now on you will find them on the left somewhere. And for once BELOW:

1. 381.0 lbs - 172.8 kg reached!
2. 342.9 lbs - 155.8 kg reached!
3. 308.6 lbs - 140.0 kg
4. 277.7 lbs - 126.0 kg
5. 249.9 lbs - 113.4 kg
6. 225.0 lb - 102.0 kg
7. 198.4 lbs - 90.0 kg

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Breakfast
3,5 points
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2,0 - 2 slices currantbread
0,5 - linera butter
1,0 - sirop de poire (peartreacle)

Lunch
6,0 points
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0,0 - salad, tomato cucumber
2,0 - 2 slices currantbread
4,0 - smoked salmon
0,0 - fruit (400 gr)

Diner
7,0 points
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3,0 - unlimited portion curd
2,0 - 2 rye sandwiches
2,0 - 10 gr. butter

Various
4,0 points
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3,0 - 0% organic curd
1, 0 - honey

460 days

Sunday 3 August

Day maximum: 28,0 points
Day´s Bonuspoints used/saved: 29,0/0,0

Week´s Bonuspoints needed/saved (including activity points) : 1,0/30,8
Day´s excercise - cycling &Fitness: 60 + 90 minutes Activity points: 22,5
Accumulated Activity points: 8 points

(REQUIRED 6) water/tea: 8
REQUIRED 3) vegetables:3
(REQUIRED 2) fruit: 1
(REQUIRED 2) fat: 2
(REQUIRED 2) calcium: 2

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Not sure what I can say....

Today was my first day EVER in a gym. It was..................FANTASTIC. I have no shape, I have problems even doing a 2 mile pace on a tredmill, But what the heck. I put in a total of 90 minutes of fitness, including a warm up, 1 hour 10 minutets of Cardio, and a cool down.

There is no need to put any braincells to work for now,b ecause the machines do it all for me. I enter my weight, my age, the kind of program I want, and it monitors my heart rate and my progress. All it requires from me is just to GET MOVIN'.

I tried out the treadmill, the treadclimber, bicycle, and crosstrainer. I like the treadmill best, but the tread climber is fun too. The cross trainer is hard work with my weight, and is actually a hard excercise from a coordination perspective. But as I understand it it is a mix between cycling and running without the impact on your knees. Which is good for me.
The bicycle is easy actually. with all the cycling I do it is not that hard. All these machines are state of the art, and I enjoyed the euphoria of actually working up a sweat, and believe me, I DID. I have never seen my arms work up a swet, but this time they did. Watching others as I do my "thang" going so much faster and longer is quite a thrill for me. Sort of a glimpse intio my future?

For now I have worked out the following schedule (these include dressing etc. 20 mins)

1. Mon 07:00-08:45 AM - 1:45 mins (cardio & muscles)
leg press 40 kg (target: 60kg) (2 sets of 15)
leg abductor 45kg (target: 70kg) (2 sets of 15) TIGHTEN ABDOMINALS!
glute 20kg (target: 35kg) (2 sets of 15)
back ex 35kg (target: 50kg) (2 sets of 15)
2. Wed 04:45/05:45-06:30/07:00 PM - 1:45/1:30 mins (cardio)
3. Fri 07:00-08:45 AM - 1:45 mins (cardio) & muscles
crunch 20lg(target: 35kg) (3 sets of 30)
leg curl 20kg (target: 35kg) (2 sets of 15)
chest press 10 kg (target: 15kg) (2 sets of 15)
lat pull 20kg (target: 30kg) (2 sets of 15)
4. Sun 09:00-11:00 AM - 2:00 mins (cardio & swimming & sauna)
triceps 3kg (target: 5kg) (2 sets of 15)
biceps 5 kg (target: 7,5kg) (2 sets of 15)
torso 18 kg (target: 25kg) (2 sets of 15)
hamstring 18 kg (target: 25kg ) (2 sets of 15)

And I have been doing some websearching on some of the excercises I hope to do tomorrow.

1. Leg press

Sit into the leg press and get stabilized; have your feet up on the sled, bring your feet outside hip width apart. Lean back so that your back and your spine is nice and flat again the seat and make sure that your hip is nice and snug into the corner. Then go ahead and release the sled, bring it down, bring your knees towards each shoulder specifically and then I want you to exhale, pull your belly button in and push the sled away and push into your heels, drive the sled all the way up and then take another inhale as you bring the sled back down. Try to relax your neck and your shoulders as much as possible, really feel that your focus point is your pelvis with contact point of the seat and just keep driving and working with your legs. Go for two of 15 for the first 8 weeks just to get your body conditioned. When you finish your set, go ahead take a 30 second break before you begin the second set.

2. Leg abductors

Helps give lateral support and overall it adds to conditioning for your body and stability and will be necessary in progressing to other exercises. Have a seat so that your pelvis will touch the back of the seat. Make sure that your legs are out nice and long so that you don't feel cramped. Select a weight that is appropriate. Bring your hands down by your side, hold onto the handles, exhale, pull your belly button in towards your spine and you open your knees and your feet out to the side. Work smoothly and work as wide as you can. It's very important to work with your abdominals tightening each time, it'll add support to your obliques and also to the muscles that will work for stability in other exercises.

All of this keeps me focused on my eating as well. I believe my motivation has been kickstarted again. It is easier to do the right thing, eat the right thing. I am not yet saying it is easy, but certainly easier!-keeps fingers very much crossed- Thank you for all your support. Who would have thought, Me, ONCE 360 LBS GIRL, doing ftness in a Gym!! Me!! YAY!

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Breakfast
3,0 points (no added sugar)
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3,0 - 3 currant loaf slices

Lunch
8,0 points
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4, 0 -4 currant loaf slice
4,0 - 1 scoop Ben & Jerry

Diner
7,0 points
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5,0 - 1250 gr. smoked salmon
2,0 - 200 gr. salad, cucumber, peppers , avaocado

Various
0,0 points
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